jukebox 2019
a white day gift by m
About
welcome to mei's juke box selection. each song included here contains a letter dedication to a person whom mei thinks about first when the song starts playing.
these are also the people who made her 2018-2019 colorful.
do you think she has one for you?
this is part three of the anonymous letters series made by mei. she's been doing this tradition since 2017, and it goes around every cute and special occasions, like white day, confessions day, and christmas day.
this year, she has decided to make one for white day (although she's a tad bit late in posting)
be informed that this is the anonymous letters, so all dedications are not addressed. mei made sure to have everything obvious for the people to know it's about them. think you actually have one here from her? good luck and have fun reading!
songs
choose a number combination to view the song
"It’s been a long time, how have you been? I’m the same, just working hard. How about you?"
yeah, it's been a long time with you. and i haven't heard from you (which is definitely sad)
i sent you a message recently but i doubt that got to you so that doubles the sadness, huh. yes, i'm sad you no longer talk to me when you're the only one who used to understand my antics and could cope with my frequent mood swings; but understandable, we both have lives to live and we got busy at some point, and that's where we started drifting apart.
i would be lying if i'd say it's okay. but really, who am i right, i'm just an internet friend to you (funny because that was what exactly i told you.) oh well, we'll cross paths one day, but i guess the circumstance would be different by then. it was really a fun 2017-2018 with you! i included you here because you're still part of my 2018 and at one point you were the only (internet) friend who mattered to me.
a midsummer night's sweetness
by. san-e & raina
"facing failures is better than in the end being the person i don't like to be"
girl, even if you're the most annoying person i know, remember that i would never trade you for anyone. even if you betray me right in front of my face (i'm kidding, i might have second thoughts, don't light my wick haha)
you never really saw me write anything for you, no? figured. i'll make sure you get to see this, and know this one is for you.
okay, right now you're having a hard time with studies and tons of stuff, but remember that i am here to give you support in the form of things i can provide you with, in case you need any and well, the premise is, i can provide for it lol.
girl don't make me your role model, i'm a legit mess, and you know that. i'm immature, you pretty much know about that. there's nothing fancy about me, i'm more like a scam, so i suggest, it's time for you to make your own history. be the role model now. it's your time to make yourself known to the world. please don't believe other people when they say you're hiding behind my shadow. you have your own light, just make it flicker, and from there, make a huge flame that people will take note of and admire.
also, remember my high school yearbook quote, it might help you: "aim high, hit the mark!"
helios
by. meng meiqi
"but there are mountains, and there are doors that we can't walk through"
this is my favorite song for 2018 and i'm dedicating this to you for the most obvious reasons. it's very funny because we're literally so close to getting together like every damn time (let me have my moment here!) but it just doesn't work. lol. rip to the chinese line recently! they both died the natural death, huh? love you nonetheless. we're both whack, and that's how we work!
funny we got a common denominator now (whack!) and i wasn't expecting it to be that way! but truly, 2018 and the first leg of 2019 really brought about so much things for us to bear. whatever, we're stronger each day, and sometimes we just gotta say stan list and move on, huh (whack!)
and girl, don't worry much about me! i read your white day letter for me, and really, i'm okay (whack!) okay maybe not, physically. but thank you for always worrying about me and yelling at me (more than my mom does, whack!) that makes me feel important, that i actually mattered to some people :pleading eyes emoji:
know that you're one of the very few people i treasure and trust. here's more to the years of friendship!
rewrite the stars
by. anne-marie & james arthur
"been a fool, girl i know. didn't expect this is how things would go"
firstly, while i was drafting the contents of this jukebox, i had you in the list with no song that reminds me of you. i was opting to go for any rihanna or beyonce song, or like any blackpink song that gives me a vibe that's so you, but i came in empty-handed! until the day that you mentioned this song and i sang disturbia instead (whack!) so there you go, this song, with disturbia, is the song that officially reminds of you.
secondly, girl, how does it feel like seeing three of your girl friends being boo boo the fools this year?? aren't we whack. lmao. judge us all you want but we still love you or whatever.
it's really fun doing all the dares and shittons of crazy things with you and the gang. tea times are always the best with you (why do they like talking to you and not me???? lmao i kid. those kids think i'm scary huh) ring me when you're drunk and i'll make sure to record whatever you're saying so you won't forget that you actually called me in the unholiest time of the day! (i'm making it a blackmail material too, jsjsjs)
lastly, i'm so surprised you know we're not entirely close to begin with but look at us now! we've come so far, giiiirl. i'm truly looking forward to seeing you this year! why do you have to be so close yet so far away? i don't understand this. hhhh.
insomnia
by. craig david
"call me baby if you need a friend, i just wanna give you love"
read the caption, it says call me if you need a friend, not a girlfriend. akjshdakjsdhasdasdaaaas i love you hahahaha! our wittle omega! cheer up, ayt? we got your back!
okay we're basically similar in most aspects, and i see you like a mini(???????) me lmao. more like my bear sized baby. we've been through a lot. we've shared so much ups and downs together, and i'm just happy knowing you're truly one of the people i can trust in this one heck of a liar and deceiving economy.
i feel bad you have to experience worst of the worst, but let me tell you how i am so proud of you! i'm proud you went through those and look at you now! a stronger and more mature version of your past self. you are learning quite a lot from those experiences. now stop being a brat and use your brain for thinking. you know we get agitated and worried whenever you do dumb things. it feels as if we're also the ones getting hurt when you're down.
that aside, i'm really happy you'd be joining us soon! i'm looking forward to spending past curfew hours with you ehehehe we're just gonna play switch wbk. and yeah, don't forget to download the games ok. of course, tea time will be there too. huehue. we'll get you bread, a high quality one that will stay, don't worry beb! we gotchu! 2019 is the year of us!
one call away
by. charlie puth
"shit, maybe i miss you"
i want you to listen to the song and take note of the lyrics because while i was doing the same thing, i knew this song was the right song for you from me. oh god.
initially this wasn't the song i was going to dedicate to you; i had these cute ones i got in mind but this came in the shuffle when i played all songs in my phone so...
i don't know what to say. are we completely strangers to each other now? probably. since we went on with our own lives. can't be blamed tho! that's the reality of life!
wanna talk though? i mean i know you know i get awkward when i talk to you now. i know you're smart enough to know something's off when i talk to you. ahhh i can't exactly piece why for now though, so please refrain from asking?
i still feel sad when i log on that account and your tweet's the first thing i see. i feel like i should do something about it, but heck, i'm always a puny when it comes to you.
you're always nice to me, always giving, always tolerating, and that scares me too much. i can't find flaws in you and it makes me think you don't exist. but then really, there's very few of you out there, and you do exist. angels like you do exist in human form. and i can't thank you more for existing in my life.
i miss you but maybe i should stop, you know.
miss you
by. louis tomlinson
"she's fly effortlessly"
giiiiiiiiirl. our miss independent. you truly fly effortlessly! among my online friends, i could say you're like, the most popular. and wow i have a popular friend wow. how to be you!
you have a lot of (online) friends but i'm so happy that you don't forget to check on us. to the others, get you a friend like this one! she's one of the best, and truly the only one of her kind that i trust and love dearly.
um. don't ask me about the song choice, ma. the song just screams you for some reason: strong and independent woman.
thank you for teaching me my fourth (or fifth?) language, now my friends are wondering how the heck do i know how to speak that.
so.... can't wait to see your this 2020/2021 hehehehehehehehe love you mwah
miss independent
by. ne-yo
"if we could speak like we're trying to share conversation, communication"
i love this song so much, this is one of my you-think-this-song-is-fun-but-listen-to-the-lyrics and baaam! usually when it's why don't we song, it only reminds me of how sad i was last 2018 because most of their releases for the latter part of the year was sad. but then prep for white day and this came about and i instantly thought of you!
idk but i feel like i should talk to you? i mean if you'd like to! i feel like i'm just gonna bother you if i randomly sent you a dm lmao
okay but true story you shouldn't have been in here but you somehow made my 2018 a bit more tolerable and it was fun while it lasted! i hope we can still chat sometimes! i really miss you. i hope you're doing well and you're enjoying the company of whoever you are with now~
talk
by. why don't we
"it's alright, it's okay. i'm so much better without you. i won't be sorry"
this is the most petty song in this playlist hahahaha serves you right girl!!!!
i kid, honey. i'm not that mean. this just screams us in the rp sometimes. i'm just happy you have a gf now. oh my god, you won't be popping in my messages to tell me that you like me and then i get these confusing signals and my mind will go haywire and then i'm gonna malfunction for the next hours or so. gosh. girl, your impact! can sometimes get my defense down!
the petty song aside, i'm really happy for you! sometimes i'm a bitch (wbk) but you're also a bitch sometimes too!!! it be that way sometimes! sometimes!!! lol. but hey at least we're friends, right???? right?????? better than no longer talking and just backstabbing whew.
i'd tell you all that's in my head about you, and they come off as insult to you, but at least after few days, we get to bounce back and be friends again. you're my on&off friend ohoho.
having you in my life is a wild ride. a lot might hate you, but at least i'm here and i don't hate you as much as they do ehehehe mwah
it's alright, it's okay
by. ashley tisdale
"bought matching diamonds for six of my bitches"
idk this screams as the squad's song for some reason so i put this here as the finale.
and i got six bitches i trust in this online economy, hence the caption i chose to put up there!
shoutout to my six bitches, i love you all!
this would have been thank u next for all the bullshits we've been through together, but we're not being a drama club rn, we're being the petty club i kid hahaha, we're being the thotty girls club (tm) i meant.
n e ways
see you... see you somewhere mwah
7 rings
by. ariana grande